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12月24日

平安夜心情

不知道为什么,荷尔蒙失调吧,突然down了起来。。。。听到‘听见’这首歌。。。觉得我很像歌里的人。。。其实我在放弃,但感觉上很寂寞,说是说没有想要特意看到她,但知道骗不了自己的感觉。。。另一方面,我也想到。。。如果给我看到她加上一个他,我会有怎样的感受。。。彷徨?沮丧?安心?
今天没有朋友要去倒数,我也担心今天没有人会倒数。。。本来约了Ah Yiu去倒数,但他是带着他女朋友的。。。所以不像做他们的电灯泡,所以没理他了。。。
明天就要回到那里了,功课算做了点,但是还没读完,但我好像没什么心情读了。。。
很想出去散心,找一些觉得舒服的地方走走,但好像没有什么可能。。。
想要独处的我,却感到寂寞,
找不到疗伤的药,只好忍着痛,
伸手触摸下雪的感觉,迎接白色圣诞
不管雪是冰冷的,
只因为内心的寂寞也包容了这份冷漠的感觉,
难以找寻点燃的热情,难以填补心里的空
只有让尘埃遮盖,麻痹伤口的痛
陶醉在痛楚里,慢慢的失去知觉
渡过每刻的时光。。。425235
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圣诞节的心情歌

听见-恶作剧之吻

 

你不开心的脸
仿佛将我推到悬崖边缘
距离就算在靠近眼前
我们一样没交点
没有你的世界
就像寒冬没有春天依偎
少了你不在身边
我的四季只剩下冬天
悲伤喜悦回忆不断重演
静下来的世界
有我的思念
也有你的空虚无边

你有没有听见
寂寞的声音悄悄在蔓延
他住进我们之间
消耗着我和你的永远
你有没有听见
思念的呼唤传遍每条街
就算你走的再远
累了回头我就在你的身边

12月20日

无题

其实我一直都知道,放弃是很难,坚持更难。。。。像tebu说的一样,这本来就我想要得啊,我还那么执著的话,真的是无补于事
希望可以以日记慢慢把她淡忘吧。。。我现在已经没有希望能在那里看到他的留言,他的信息。。。其实有点不想看到,不然我怕会回头去看他。。。我真的有点惊讶。。。为什么我朋友会喜欢上那XX,和可以酱快变心。。。他告诉我说好马不吃回头草,哈哈,你是酱说的吧,但我发现哈哈,我不是只好马。。。一匹迷失方向的‘乱马’
我一直都在追求些奇怪的梦想,什么都一样,学业感情都是。。。只是因为觉得,人生都是酱子罢了。。。过多几十年都是死的,随随便便的过就算了。。。
但是我就不知道自己想怎样,继续作自己觉得喜欢的事情,还是真的要面对现实去做人。。。两个对比的生活。。。烦恼。。。我怕我会后悔,我前途很lost。。。。
我在KMP一直都有写日记,有时没写就写些感觉在手机。。。
 
-只有看到鬼屋我才能感觉到我勇敢了些,能够保护她。。。但一切都已过去,但我不会忘记那天一起过的时光
-我发现,我开心的时候,我找不到一个能够告诉的人,除了家人,不再有一些知己与己同乐。
 
KMP一直都在古灵惊怪的开玩笑,作弄人。。。应该没有人发现我那里不开心,去槟城散心的人不只是雪芬和tracy吧。。。。以前还有包和我谈天,也有姐和雄在网上聊天,和表姐谈心。。。还有翠思sms。。。。但现在没有了,各有各的忙。。。。而且我自己也好像和周围的人隔了层膜,想人家关心但我不想人家知道我在发生什么事情。。。很奇怪的白痴吧。。。一直都在读书,上课,浪费时间,睡觉,听歌。。。
就来要进入非常时期。。。又要面对一大堆考试。。。很烦!!所以我才一直的抓雪俪来玩。。。有时我怕我讲得玩笑太过火,因为有一次弄哭了雪芬,因为酸她失恋,她说是她自己说分手,所以我以为她应该不会那么伤心吧,可是她还是很喜欢那条众所皆知不知道那里好的人。。。当我唱歌酸到她哭是我傻眼了。。。觉得很内疚。。。对不起。。。
算啦,我也不知道为什么我在KMP那么的guai lan。。。像个捣蛋鬼。。。
我可能已经变了吧,如果连我自己都觉得变了,是不是变得很厉害呢??如果我得罪你们的话,就不妨骂几句啦。。。我可能也听不进去了。。。

The thruth of the history

I don't know how true is it, but certainly something for us to ponder & wish we could find out the truth.........&  ...&

The Truth Revealed (with evidence) - Must read


In June 1998, the government of Malaysia had hired a team of
experts from across the continent to be gathered here in Malaysia for a research project to complement the history studies that we undertook in our secondary schools.

The objective of the research is simply:


1. To find proof and evidence that shows the Malays are the origins of Malaysia and they are the first race and religion that  land their foot in Malaysia .
2. To further strengthen their claims, first they need to find the graveyard of the Hang Tuah, Hang Jebat, Hang Lekiu and etc..toshow the existant of their pioneer.

3. The Batu bersurat in Terengganu, reveals that the islamic religion has landed in Malaysia for a hundred years ago which further strengthen their claims!

That is why, we are taught with sejarah (history of Malaysia )!!!!

BEWARE & OPEN YOUR EYES!!! go ask your brother, sister, niece, nephew and etc. etc, since the year 1999 (if i'm not mistaken) or year 2000, do they study about HANG TUAH anymore????????

Why is that popular subject GONE????? Missing in action??????? or evidence revealed something different that caused the government
to stop the syllabus and HIDE the TRUTH????????

*Here are the Evidences of the findings by the team of scientists, archaeologist, historian and other technical staff from the United States , United Kingdom , Germany , Canada , Yemen & Russia . *

*The evidence are: *

1) They finally found the graveyard of Hang Tuah, Hang Jebat etc..., their skeleton had been analised and samples of DNA had been taken with the results showing: Hang Tuah, Hang Jebat, Hang Lekiu and mates, they are NOT MALAY!!!!!! they are CHINESE (islamic) from China !!! and why they were here in Mala cc a????? because they were in a misison to protect the MALAY
S from the potential attack of SIAM  ( Thailand )!!!

So Hang Tuah is not Malay hero!!! they are the protector of the useless and ungrateful Parameswara (who is from INDONESIA ) landed in Malacca and claim the land belongs to him!!!


The Hang Tuah bunch of people were all from China , they were being assigned to Malacca because Parameswara requested the Ching  Dynasty Emperor for protection!!!

This is why the Hang Tuah series of history is MISSING from SEJARAH!!!!

*2nd. Evidence: *

The researchers hired by the government found the oldest tomb stone(grave yard) in Kelantan in year 2000. Suprisingly the tomb stone are at least 900 years old!!!! older than the so-called batu bersurat. and the best thing is, it belong to the CHINESE!!!!!!!!

Being landed first in Mala cc a doesn't mean Malay is the first in Malaysia cos during that time, the road is too  long for them to see the other side of the coast!!! where the Chinese has landed far more earlier. If you want the black and white evidence of the truth reveals
please write to the The Federal Association of Arc & Research of  Michigan, USA .

Please do not ask the Chinese nor the Indians to go back to their home country!

Cos evidence shows that Malays are NOT  Malaysian origin either!

Your ancestors are all imigrants from INDONESIA !

Let us unite as a nation and not divided by races.